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It is currently 6.13am and I`ve hadn`t had a wink of sleep since 11am yesterday.
Even if I want to sleep right now - I cannot bring myself to sleep. Why?Just take a look at my bed:




How to sleep in it!!! Headache.
So how it got this messy in the first place? My MOTHER lah!!

Poor me had to stay up all night to make paperbag puppets for her!
I do admit that it was fun in the beginning, but after 3am - I was fighting hard to keep my eyelids open.

Made about 6 animals in total..
I'll put the photos up on facebook... too lazy to put it up here... :p

But this is not the END!
My poor baby sister (okay lah she's in sec 2) has to make 30 stuffed keychains for her P.W fair.
So I made this stuffed onigiri as a sample (to check out the response of customers before the sale)

I thought it was quite cute... but greenridge students thought otherwise.
According to my sister, cute stuff are passe. Retarded looking stuff are in demand. Just what we needed.
So its back to the drawing board. *shakes head*

Well anyway... I made another stuffed keychain. I call it "Grandfather".

The inspiration for this design came from my granddad's bushy eyebrows. I was (still am) unhappy about my bushy eyebrows, which I inherited from my granddad. So being cheeky, I made that. Hohoho.... =)

It's been kinda funny with 'grandfather' around. For example:

Lavanyah:*snatches "grandfather" from my hands*
Me: Oi gimme back grandfather!
Lavanyah: *throws it up and down*
Me: Stop throwing grandfather around lah *serious tone*
Both of us:HAHAHAHA XD

LAME I know... heh heh
Kinda offended my mum in the process, since I am indirectly making fun of her dad. HEEE..
Now, we call it "the toy" in front of her - just to avoid her nagging.

It's 7.10am ... so sleepy. I think I should just sleep on the couch.
But should I start sleeping? Or stay awake throughout the day?
I'm meeting Karen at Bugis later for some window shopping... CANNOT BE LATE!!! (I hope)
If I sleep now... I'll definitely be late.
But if I don't sleep - I'll be a window shopping zombie
GAHH!! I can't decide...



Sidenote: Aaron left for US already... take care dude. Don't come back with pink coloured hair or with a bald head hor. :)

WOOHOO.... I did a mini-retro background.
No wonder Karen dear kept playing with gimp.... Im addicted to it too!!



My eyes starting hurting  for a moment.
The background`s cool- but I had to edit the scripts in gimp to get this effect.
Hopefully... I didn't screw up the software. HEEEE =)

PS: Still waiting for his letter... GRRR!!! ")

I made another logo... yeesh this is getting to be addictive.



A little messy though... but I LOVE the swirly effect....
Swirly brushes make my day!!

Ciao!

I really wanted to place my logo in the picture... but I didnt know how to resize the logo in GIMP.

So I ended up doing this:



Alamak... looks so fake lah...hahahah
The tutorial for this sucked. I ended up making the logo all in one layer - which wasn't suppose to be the case.
Seriously though, I wanted to write a long phrase depicting my current  state of mind.
Changed my mind at the last minute. HEHEHE... stuck with "UMAMAMA" ... wait how many "MA" was there?
Oh its actually "UMAMAMAMA" - left out an extra "MA"... WAHAHAHAH... okok I know I'm being lame.
Gonna try using a brick wall next... and learn how to use the perspective tool the RIGHT way.

Till next time
Ciao.

Ps: Where is my pen-pal's letter????
P.P.s: Credits goes out to the photographer of this picture for taking such a good shot. =)

Hehe... Seriously the past two days were BORING.
I read all my favourite manga and watched all my favourite anime - and I was still bored.
So I decided to play with Gimp... Hehe
Im a noob.... so here they are..







I only like the first one though - even if the name is kinda long for graffitti
The last one was too ambitious - was experimenting with the splatter brushes...

Hopefully, I can settle on a graffitti I like and continue with the next part of the project.
What is it?

Heh heh... I'm not telling! Peace!
.

I need to learn how to do a slip stitch!!
Next on my agenda.

The nuclear bomb... duh.

I finally got a chance to cosplay!!
Cosplayed for the every first time as shinpachi-kun from  Gintama.. TEEHEE :)

I'm a cosplayer... WOOHOO!! - And I'm lovin it!

At least half of my entries are private.
Maybe I should just turn this blog private.

Sigh

As I've said before, I don't believe in sharing the gloom.
So most of my emo posts are private - and POOF! half my entries aren't public. TEEHEE!! :)

Anyway, I made an observation about myself.
I always thought that my standard of  English was stuck at a level of a Primary 6 student. Never really got over the blow of a B4 for my O-levels.
Then just yesterday, my tutee asked me to help him with his Primary 6 English Paper.
You know how English papers used to be so scary right... with their comprehension cloze and open-ended questions. Yes I admit. I'm still fearful of them! Grr... But surprisingly, the questions were quite simple to answer... especially the cloze passage. I could never get those questions right! This time round, it came so naturally to me. Gosh! I was like - " I've finally evolved" Now I can proudly say that my standard of English is not at Primary 6 level - maybe seconday 3... muahahahahah.....

If there's one thing I also realised, its that cloze passage questions can be tackled if you read alot of newspaper... I mean ALOT OF NEWSPAPER!!! Primary 6 was a time I hardly touched the papers.  No wonder my English results were always so SUCKY!! argh.

Alright... this is such a random post. I know. Off to write an emo post. Ciao

Chocolates and Watching Cartoons (Anime)

I'm such a kid... yet I feel so old .
21 here I come

I can't sleep.

Why?

Cos it just hit me that cosfest '09 is 42 days from now.
And I haven't started on my costume!!!

Omg! I'm actually gonna cosplay..... yikes!!!
It's not like I'm gonna back out now or anything... but my nerves are getting the better of me.
I've been paying too much attention to elizabeth that I forgot about shinpachi..

All that's left for Eilzabeth is:
- sewing her flippers to her body
-sticking on the cardboard
-sewing the feet up
-test-run
- sewing on the eyes
-sewing buttons to the mouth

I think we may need 2 more days to complete the costume.
Jason.... PLEASE DON'T DIE OF A HEAT STROKE IN IT!!! lol
Seriously... its freaking hot inside.
I'll put up the pics soon.
Maybe tommorrow..HEEETEEEE =)

I've never seen an Indian cosplayer in Singapore before!!  Sigh.
Just hope the crowd is more forgiving that day.

I may have to run down to chinatown AGAIN (like the fourth time already) to get materials for my costume.
Argh!

ANYWAY - sidenote
I think I'm getting volunteer-phobia.
My tutee is at the rebellious stage of his life... real naughty fellow.
All he wants to do is play with me. sigh.

How do you get a child to read??  One of the greatest mysteries in my life right now... :3

My music tastes are diverse.
(less diversed then the VDJ recombination in antibodies but definitely wide-ranging)

It really depends on my mood.

When I feel like being violent:

When I feel like being a feminist:



When I'm feeling depressed:

When I'm feeling quirky:

When I'm feeling lost:


When I decide to run away from reality:


When I just feel like going back to the past:

Ohh... the English version of this song by DAI is hideous. Don't bother listening to them.
The mori version wasn't too bad ... but I'm a Tomiko Van supporter... so there.

When I just wanna chill out:


When I'm high:

When I start thinking about my future:

Sigh...

I warned you didn't I...
My taste in music is so complicated.
Rock, jazz, pop, musicals....

My favourite Bands and Artists:
1. Do As Infinity ( Sadly, they disbanded on my 17th birthday)
2. George Micheal - His songs fall under " When I'm under an inflatuation spell"
3. Five for fighting
4. High and mighty colours
5. Ayumi hamasaki- her 'DUTY" CD was the best.
6. Natasha Beddingfield
7.etc.... (just to name a few)

Sigh *again* what in the world prompted me to make this post? - no idea whatsoever.

I think I pissed a friend off real bad.

Like real REAL BAD.

 

Oh my. Why is it such a crime to be busy?

Sometimes, not having anything to do can also be seen as a crime.

 

Seriously... what a screwed up concept. Anyway, back to the problem.

 

This friend of mine keeps asking me if I'm free on days when I'm NOT FREE!

E.g On- BS206 exam day and tommorrow which is CPD. ( Cosfest preparatory day)

It makes me feel so guilty... when I say “ Nope... Got something on etc...”

Sigh.

 

So, to prevent such situations from arising again- I'm gonna list down my schedule.

Then again it ain't gonna be real effective, since half  my friends don't read my blog.

Oh what the hell! I'm gonna do it anyway.

Here goes!

 

Sunday

Techincally I'm free.

Only that I gonna be back early to do my share of the housework.

Sometimes I go running with Siewling on sundays. Depending on what time we get up. Heh heh :)

 

Monday

Free till 4pm.

After 4, I've got tuition for 3 long hours.

(Now this is provided that I don't get fired next week) :P

 

Tuesday

I'm free... but still got housework to do.

And it's prayer day... so more housework.

 

Wednesday

CPD – Most of the time in SBS resource room B with Karen and Jason.

We are working on Jason's Elizabeth costume.

I'll post pictures!!

 

Thursday

Free till 4pm.

After 4, I've got tuition for 3 long hours.

(Now this is provided that I don't get fired next week) :P AGAIN.sheesh

 

Friday

Free till 5pm.

Got volunteering work at 7pm with my cute kid. Hehehe... He's real adorable.

The only stressful thing about PROJECTRead is that I got to make this kid read in 5months.

Anyone got any suggestions on how I should go about teaching a K2 kid to read?

 

Saturday

Free...but, it's prayer day... so more housework. Urgh.

 

I just realised... that my relationship with my 2^nd sis is just like Yui's relationship with her sis(K-ON!)...

Tragic was the word used... okay that was random.

 

So... on top of my housework, I've got tons of mum's work to do.... and I'm not paid (which sucks even more- I can't even use that in my resume'!!)

I still have my own goals to fulfill during the holidays. I call them – VG (Vacation Goals)

 

VG 1: Tidy my bedroom cupboard :(

VG 2: Meditate twice a day

VG 3:Watch Early Edition everyday at 1pm on AXN... the lead actor's cute!!

VG 4: Learn how to play Fukai Mori on the guitar.

VG 5:Make flashcards for my kids.

VG 6: Finish Jason's book – the one about Mosad.

VG 7: Get over Jason's cosplay costume and mine too.

VG 8: Go see the doctor... I'm pretty freaked out over the lump in my boobs. It's so irritating and makes my boobs ache.

VG 9: Catch up with my reading ( okay... I'm getting this done)

VG 10: Meet up with all my friends... Factory girls, the sotongs, anti-socials of AC, Aaron and some other sec sch friends.

 

So much to do... but so little time.

Gomenasai dude.... another time bah. =(

The questions beginning with " What if...?" are truly really scary.

What if I stayed in 4E2 instead of appealing for 4E1  in secondary school?

What if I stayed in ACJC instead of coming to PJC?

What if I chose NUS instead?

The last two questions scares me the most.

I really miss AC, even though it was for 3 months.... My most memorable days were there.
Especially missed AC's orientation (far more exciting than PJ's I feel)... sigh.
But if I hadn't come to PJ, I wouldn't have met the factory girls or the multi-racial rebels...sigh.
Why am I still running back to the past instead of moving on....
Running away - that's what I'm good at.
When things get tough, what do I do?
Bury myself with manga and drift off to anime land... hoping to never come back. Oh my... I'm actually being Emo...

WHY did I choose NTU??? I don't remember, seriously....
NUS is nearer to my house and yet I picked NTU instead.... sigh.


OOooo Karen's stalker is coming to NTU next sem. Can you believe it? I saw him crossing the traffic light in CCK yesterday. Talk about coincidence. Something tells me that next semester's gonna be PRETTY INTERESTING YA?
One more person to play hide-seek with heh heh...:P

Besides, anticipating for the return of THE STALKER.. I met my reading partner for today. Was really impressed with his reading. I mean when I was in K2 I didn't even know my name. [ long story: Everybody kept calling me 'Uma' at home. Only in Pri one I figured t that it was actually 'Umaiyaal"- that's why I prefer being called Uma]. My PROJECTRead tutee was so adorable and his one year old sister was even more adorable!! She gave me a baby hug!!! Ran and hugged my bag and legs....KAWAIIII!!! =) Gotta start making flash cards for him...  I wanna play with the sister again...keeyah!!

LASTLY..... EXAMS ARE HERE! AND I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did you know that I have a favourite poet? Yup.

The author of the "A Poison Tree"  - William Blake

Fell in love with the poem poison tree since secondary one. Some parts of this dark poem holds true to my inner personality.
It's such a cynical yet bittersweet story. LOVED IT!! Here's another poem by him.


A Divine Image

Cruelty has a human heart,
And Jealousy a human face;
Terror the human form divine,
And Secresy the human dress.

The human dress is forged iron,
The human form a fiery forge,
The human face a furnace sealed,
The human heart its hungry gorge.

Copyright by poemhunters.com

He's just too clever with words.



Besides reminising my literature lessons in secondary school, Priska replied to my e-mail...
SWEETNESS =)

Got to reply to her soon...
YAY to the revival of the ANTI-SOCIAL GANG of AC... muahahaha

Hello there!

 

It's real cool to hear from you guys again! It's me Uma!

Currently a second year undergrad in NTU's School of Biological Science (SBS). I've only been keeping in touch with Karen cos we are classmates again! Actually, after the first 3 months we met up to join a taekwondo club in Gek poh C.C. In the end, we also took up the same 4 year course in SBS. Heh heh. Is there anybody that intends to come to NTU? If so.. you guys can join us for our Monday's "Laksa Marathon" - basically we eat laksa every Monday in our school's cafe called the Quad. Okay... that's random.

Priska! You're in Japan that's so cool!! We wanna come with you too!! When will you becoming back to Singapore? Have you been keeping track of the latest anime crazes this season like Kuroshitsuji, Toradora, Maria Holic and Soul eater?? As you can see, we have very much evolved to become anime otakus over a period of 4 years. Both of us are into cosplay as well. Next June, Karen will be cosplaying as Kagura from Gintama and me Shinpachi from Gintama too.

Anyway, the everyday life of a SBS student consists of constantly getting fustrated over our lecturers mega thick foreign accents (e.g we have a lecturer who says “usually” as “urally”), rushing to complete lab reports) and finally getting terrified by our virology lecturer who just loves to say “If you do not (his instructions), you WILL get EJECTED OUT of the lab” (british accent mind you).

I didn't know that we could use the phrase “ejected out” on people. Oh well.

Hope to hear from you guys soon! =)

 

Uma


Will people respond to it?
Karen... you owe me one! I responded on your behalf too!! =)
 

I can't stand him!!!
I can't stand him!!!
I can't stand him!!!
I can't stand him!!
I can't stand him!!
I can't stand him!!
I can't stand him!!
I can't stand him!!!
I can't stand him!!! =(



Why can't you stop being a hypocrite???
I certainly don't need you to call  me "immature"

For goodness sake! So ARE YOU TOO!!

Why are all their voices so loud?
Bloody distracting!

I seriously should start camping in NTU.

FINALLY!!

A chapter of Kekkashi and 5 chapters of Laon released by onemanga.com today
I was waiting for so long lor.

Kekkashi has a new twist.. yay!

Laon is as bloody and gory as before... yay yay! - Laon got her first tail as well. So cute lah!
I want to be a gumichio - nine tail fox. So cute lah!!
And I can destroy any man I want.... muahaha.
My feminist side just came on - oh well.


So supposedly I am suppose to be happy right because of my overdued manga updates. But  - no.
I'm real bitter since yesterday.
Starved myself today.

I wrote an emo post yesterday. But turned it into a private post. I don't really believe in spreading the gloom.
Tommorrow Baka-man is crashing my lectures... please Uma don't go pouring your grievances to him.
I always do that when he's around. Why can't I be plain happy when he's around. WHY!!!

Not this time... I'm not going to tell him a thing. I don't want to spread my gloom to him. I think he feels emo too if I'm down. He's the only other friend I've cried too. So there... Nope - no way - I can't destroy his day tommorrow.
Seriously, now I feel that my life is just one big lie.

Sigh... I shouldn't have called my sister names today. But this is the first time that my sister can't understand my point of view. She don't understand me... if she doesn't - I don't think anyone else can. Really hate this. I'll just avoid everybody today.

Wonder how long it can last? 

Holiday mood is OVER!!

Once I'm done with printing tommorrow's notes.

I'm going to bed!!
Week 5 is gonna be a whole lot different from now. Remember Yr 2 Sem1's 10am - 9pm mugging rountine during the exam period in School??

Well... It's happening again!!! Only I'm gonna start it earlier.
That's right!! From this week onwards... specifically from coming Tuesday onwards.

Why? Cause all the textbooks used for this semester's modules are stuck in the school's library.
I might as well go and set up camp at Lee Wee Nam Library :p
Seriously why are this sem's textbooks so freaking EXPENSIVE! and heavy too.... eewww....

My printer's acting up again. Dang!
I want to go to bed!!
Quickly!! Stop PMSing lah Epson!!
(In really sleepy now... that's why I'm acting all weird...zzzz...)

Nitez :P

My dad is the MOST STUBBORN PERSON IN THE WORLD.

WHO the F*** care what the astrologers say.
I HATE PEOPLE TELLING me WHAT I'll become...
OR people saying "oh, she'll end up being a teacher... blahblah"

STOP STEROTYPING ME!!
Why don't they understand that by constantly saying such things they are psychologically pressurizing me.
When society expects me to be like that... it's very likely I'll end up like that.
Clearly shown in Steele and Aaronson's study on African American students.

The worst part is when they ask what happens if I don't become whatever THEY EXPECT me to BE....
I !! being the never-say-die-sort-of person said: I'll do business then.

Then you know what my BAKA FATHER SAID!! : NO lah! You can't do business lah... 

Wa liao... if he wasn't my father I would have punched him in the face.


It was like that time where Pathiban said that I will end up being a housewife.
Seriously..I thought that my shoe was going to fly across the room to his face at that time.
I didn't - cause my aiming skills are quite bad.

I have never felt so insulted in life.

THAT WAS NOT ALL!! My mother gave me the super worried face... the same face she gave when I told her that it was the second time I got E for a chemistry test in PJC....

WHY continue to sterotype ?? WHY -when it hurts the people around you?
Without such expectations in my life...
-I wouldn't feel so restricted
-My mum wouldn't be overly worried and paranoid about my future
-My dad wouldn't be such an arse.

My HP804 lecturer was right - expectations are dangerous elements in ones life.

Argh!


Anyway... my thoughts are all over the place.
Maybe I started screaming at my dad cos I can't handle my feelings at the moment.
The thought of giving up another friend to Australia is terrifying.
But I really want her to be happy....
( that was real random - but a good reflection of my state of mind right now)

I hate my father and detest Australia right now.

=(